I often get the feeling that I want to be a mother to many. I don’t really know what it means, but when I see people sharing on their blogs about their adoptive journeys, I hunger, really hunger, to bring children home through adoption. I see other families pretty regularly on these blogs that have many children, children close together in age…. and they are thriving. I don’t think that I am strong enough to parent many children. In fact, I have not “met my stride” with these two beautiful children that I have. I get cabin fever and I get tired. I get to the point where I need help and can’t formulate any original thought or make any more attempts and things at home come to a grinding halt. I shouldn’t bring more children home before I can take care of them. So I feel like I am praying one of the most important and biggest prayers that I’ve ever had. I am praying that God will give me the energy, the strength and the skills to be able to mother many. It will be easy to see when this prayer is answered. I will, most of the time, be able to keep up with basic housework, keep my momentum/sanity most of the time and I will feel like I have energy left over. I suspect that AFTER children are added to the family, I will need to start praying it all over again. But for now, I wait expectantly for His answer and I keep pursuing a successful day. Day by day.
Just two of those websites of thousands:
http://unmistakableimprint.blogspot.com/
http://www.thereisnomewithoutyou.com/blog?op=view&id=4
just a quick comment to keep in mind, Rachel – – – your desire to be the mom of many is WONderful – but keep in mind that it doesn’t have to be done now – and that there are many older children waiting to be adopted also. That, I’m sure, brings it’s own challenges however, the need is great for them to have forever families! So, keeping that in mind – you can adopt for years into the future! (ok, that wasn’t truly a “quick” comment ;)). ♥
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i can totally relate to that. adoption used to be a magical word to me. i even had a dream about adopting another little girl a couple nights ago. sometimes you need to go with the heart and desires God placed within you, even if it logically doesn’t make total sense. love you. Karen
(and maybe you’ve already been thinking along those lines!)
I love this Rae! I always get excited when God puts a hunger in me… because it seems to be a sure sign He will fill you soon! Course, it may not always be in the way that I imagine… but it’s always fulfilling and perfect in His way. 🙂
One thing I can assure you is, you will have more energy when you are not nursing. All those relaxing hormones also make you feel tired. I had a lot more energy for my adopted babies than my birthed babies. God will fulfill the desires He puts in your heart in His own timing. Meanwhile, enjoy what you have. Enjoy blaming nursing on your laziness! It is a great excuse!
I think that not all moms of many have energy at the end of the day. I think many don’t have any energy except that which God graciously disposes upon them each morning when they rise. I also think His mercies are new every morning. We don’t have to feel we have arrived before we start. We have to have faith and an understanding that it will not be easy, that we will rely on Him. He really does provide the rest.
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